As it is National Breastfeeding week I thought I would share my breastfeeding journey. Breastfeeding is not something I particularly enjoyed, I didn’t feel any kind of special connection and I’m not brave enough to get my boobs out in public. I take my hat off to those who can get past the painful phase and those with the confidence to feed in public. That just isn’t me and I’m OK with that, I don’t feel sad or guilty that it didn’t work out for us and neither should you!
My breastfeeding story with Jack
I gave birth at 16 and even though I was so young I felt pressured by health professionals to breastfeed, not really knowing anything else I thought I had no choice but to do it, no one talked of formula or bottle feeding. I fed Jack for roughly 2 weeks before I decided I did not want to do it anymore. It hurt, I wasn’t enjoying it and as a 16-year-old I certainly wasn’t going to feed in public. I switched to formula and instantly felt like a weight had been lifted.
My breastfeeding story with Ava
Even though I knew I didn’t like breastfeeding I still wanted to attempt it with Ava and see how we got on. I was quite firm with the health professionals that I would give it a go and then move onto formula if it wasn’t for us, thankfully this time they respected that decision and didn’t try to force it on me. I fed Ava exclusively for 2 and a half days before I realised it wasn’t working for us. She was a very fidgety eater and wasn’t latching properly which in turn was making me sore and she wasn’t getting as much feed as she required. I had bought a starter pack of ready-made formula so I gave her a bottle of that and instantly she seemed more settled. I did attempt to express for a couple of days before deciding to move to bottle feeding.
How will I feed the new baby
As with Ava and Jack I will feed them myself for the first couple of days so as they get the ‘good stuff’ after that I shall just see how it goes and move to formula if things are not working out.
Please don’t leave any negative comments I know how beneficial breastfeeding is and but unfortunately I just don’t feel like it is for me and to carry on when I wasn’t enjoying it would seriously affect my mental health, and at the end of the day happy mum = happy baby.
To anyone who feels the same as me please don’t beat yourself up or allow anyone to make you feel guilty, it’s your body, your baby, your decision. Breastfeeding will not be right for everyone and that is absolutely O.K!