I know how lucky I am to have two beautiful children and have had relatively healthy pregnancies with both, I know how ‘blessed’ I am but it doesn’t mean I enjoyed it. A lot of the time women are made to feel guilty about not enjoying pregnancy but not everyone has an enjoyable pregnancy, with Jack I thought it was pretty rubbish but Ava was a whole new ball game, morning (all day) sickness you suck! SPD you also suck!
When I found out I was pregnant with Ava I though I would enjoy it, after all I wasn’t 16 anymore like with Jack, I thought my body would cope better and I was looking forward to it, how naive was I?! I got up untill week 7 and then the sickness and nausea hit like a ton of bricks, I literally felt sick every second of the day, the thought of food made me feel awful so I barely ate, and when I did it really wasnt enjoyable, for a foodie like me that’s pretty soul-destroying. I suffered with awful bloating along with the nausea and crippling headaches, I have suffered with migraines all my life and I’d just about got them under control and then bam! pregnancy hormones, thank you very much!
The nausea never went away either, it stayed with me every damn day. There was one day that we laugh about now, a day named ‘tomato gate’ I had gone to a lovely farm shop and picked up some on the vine cherry tomatoes, I sat and ate them at home and for the first time in weeks I really enjoyed them, I then spent the next 6 hours throwing up (exorcist style) any trace of tomato that ever entered my body, yuck!
As the pregnancy progressed I developed SPD, what fresh hell is that? I felt like my pelvis had split in two and someone had kicked me in the bits. Walking became a struggle even sitting down or lying down didn’t help. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
I was pretty miserable throughout, this was not the pregnancy I’d imagined, I know there are people who have it way worse than I did, you mama’s are bloody amazing! I hope the next baby is a little easier on me!
This post isn’t about moaning or being ungrateful, it’s to let other mama’s, that are having a shit time know that they are not alone and that it’s totally ok not to enjoy every second of it and that there’s light at the end of the tunnel, when I gave birth I felt absolutely amazing because all those yacky pregnancy symptoms did a runner the second I gave birth, I literally could have skipped out of the hospital!
Thanks for reading
Love Amy xx